It is hard for me to decide where to begin sharing my healing journey with you; there have been so many shifts along the way, and no one shift was more important than any other.
I believe that my healing path started very early in life. I attracted people with great amounts of emotional pain and dark secrets that they were too embarrassed to share at first. I was also a very insightful child, behaving much older that I actually was, and others often approached me for help. This is how I know I have been here, in this world, before; because of the things I knew without having had the relevant life experiences yet. Once I finished high school, I was already engaged in helping others with wisdom and guidance, but wanted more. I knew that healing takes many forms and that medicine was only a small part of that healing. I went to university to fine tune my skills of assessment and intervention for people experiencing emotional, physical, and spiritual pain.
Working within the western medical system, I had discovered various barriers and limits in promoting health and healing; such as treating the symptoms, not the disease or root cause. We all know the incredible benefits of this system, but there are gaps, and many people that fall into them. I was taught that talking through painful life experiences was key, but as I spoke with others about their pain, I felt that there must be a better way. I found that while some did recover by talking about those experiences, there were others that did not. I knew there had to be an alternative way, but didn’t know which direction to go. My journey proceeded, but not in the way I expected.
The tables turned for me when I became sick myself. I was young, only in my early twenties, and barely treading water as I tried using all the skills I learned from school, life experience, and work; and as the years went on, I began to drown. I was not only surrounded by my own pain and disbelief, that I had developed an emotional illness, but also the pain of others. Eventually I hit my dark night and needed to make a choice on whether I would live or drown. I, of course, chose life but it was not an easy decision. I needed to come to terms with asking for help, feelings of vulnerability, and the inability to let things go due to my misperceptions of identity. Human life can be very complicated, but I have learned that we make it so through our beliefs and the choices we make.
Now, I am not this incredible being that jumped in with both feet; I needed to learn to trust myself and the universe that had given me all that I needed. I began slowly trying new therapies and approaches to healing and through this exercise I realized that healing is all encompassing. Healing involves even the smallest most natural aspect of life such as eating, thinking and expressing. I learned that yes, you need to talk about your pain, but you also need to talk about your bliss. I learned that when I used my body and voice to release pain, I had deeper and more profound healing. This is where my greatest shifts started. I had transitioned from just talking about my pain, unhealthily reliving it over and over, to actively releasing it.
Releasing emotional pain through the physical body helped me to reconnect with my internal dialogue. Before, I felt sad without knowing the reason; this reconnection helped me understand the why. I learned that muscle has memory and just because you survived the experience didn’t mean you were not marked by it. Energy is never created, nor destroy, but it can be transformed. The negative experience left an imprint in my body that I carried it wherever I went, until I learned how to release it. Release occurs on many levels; physically, emotionally and spiritually. My muscles held my pain and through release I made room for healing, love, and joy in my life. The power in emotional expression can come through running, crying with sound or other physical exertion activity, all which was rewarding.
However, during this time, I also discovered that my organ systems that dealt with stress and recovery where depleted. You see, the energy that it takes the human body to just do its automatic responses, such as keeping you breathing, need to be replenished. It’s incredible the power of proper nutrition and healthy thinking. Poisons come in all different shapes and sizes. They are the toxins you eat, the toxins you breathe and pick up from your environment, and the toxins you think. I had always been told to go inside; now I apply this knowledge in a new light. My husband, the incredible man that he is, had been undergoing his own journey and thankfully he shared his knowledge and expertise with me. He knew a lot about nutrition but began digging deeper into whole foods that can nourish and support the body systems. This is when we discovered that inflammation seemed to be an enemy of mine; as it unknowingly is for many others as well. At his advice, I began to remove all things from my diet that caused inflammation to my internal organs. This lead to the realization that gluten and dairy were large culprits that kept me from getting well. I learned how to eat to support my body and started feeling happier, healthier, and more energetic. I never realized how powerful the body was and how important true nutrition was until I was shown.
I then dove deeper into the true power of consciousness, positive thought and visualization. I stumbled onto techniques that helped connect the conscious mind and issues to be shifted through muscle testing, healings through sound therapy by Tom Kenyon, and the strength of a positive thought. I discovered that while the vibration of a positive thought feels lighter than a negative thought, it is more powerful. I learned that it takes less energy to think positively than it does to think and spew negative thoughts, and that positive thinking can assist in the healing process. A positive thought can raise you up while negative thinking acts as an anchor; assisting in keeping you low, sad, and drowning. I learned a lot about how vibration works and used these tools to assist in my own healing, and continue to do this as I grow and change. I have also learned various meditations to help me connect with spirit, my inner guides and my sub consciousness which aid me in my path of growth and discoveries. As my healing continued I realized that I always had everything I needed, I just didn’t know how to use what I had already known. I am excited to say, that now I do know and feel peace in this very thought; that I am never alone and that I have all that I need.
I began reading books from Louise Hay, Wayne Dyer and Greg Braden. All incredible minds, and each with a message that can change your life. By this time, I had done so much healing I wanted to learn techniques to help others heal more effectively, giving people more tools to use on their own journey. I began practicing techniques that challenged me to look at my thoughts. By this time, my own psychic gifts were growing beautifully, every day was full of discoveries and ah-ha moments. I had already learned reiki techniques, shamanism concepts and journeying, and spiritual development, and was able to work with energies to help others; all driven by my own healing and discoveries. This was around the time when I learned the ThetaHealing Technique® that gave me the ability to change my own programs or ways of seeing the world. It was life changing and I routinely use this technique on myself to further my own healing and look forward to helping others shift using this technique.
For more on this technique check out this site: http://www.thetahealing.com/about-thetahealing.html
My healing is not over. Healing, growth, and change happen throughout our lifetime. Now with all my new experience and learned tools, I am able to stand strong against emotional pain and help others do the same. Life is truly incredible and everything happens for a reason. I now incorporate many techniques that continue to help me shift, and love teaching these techniques to all those that feel they are ready to do the same. Welcome the shift. No matter how scary or daunting it may seem, I promise it gets better, you will make shifts. I did it, and so will you.
Thank you for allowing me to share my story. Blessings for your highest good.